I can hear the rain tapping…
The sky is grey and the air is crisp…
For the first time in what feels like months my mind doesn’t feel cluttered or demanding. So often it seems there are days so over run with to-dos that I forget who I am…I forget why I am even striving so hard in the first place. I can’t remember what I am working so hard for. Have you been there?
Tucked inside the most sacred places of my heart I long to quit…I long to quit moving, running, racing, rushing and blurring through my life. I want to quit having a mind so cluttered that I need to-do lists every day so I won’t forget what needs to be done. I want to throw all my calendars, planners, goal sheets out the window and open my arms to the wind just to let it push me anywhere it can take me.
But doing this adult thing won’t really leave room for all of that.
Stillness breaks all of the rules that we place on ourselves. It leaves the door open for anything…no place to go, nothing you have to do. I long for this place. My heart, mind and body know when it is time to step back and truly be still…even if only for a little while.
Stillness, a word I would never use to describe my day to day is the word that drips from every moment that I am here. A constant state of mind, a pace, a purpose. Stillness in the Master, the stillness of seeing Jesus in every place and feeling Him in every step. Stillness.