I really thought that embracing God’s pace would be easier than it actually is, but let’s just be real…I am stubborn and disobedient.
My husband is nodding his head in agreement with that statement. I like to be in control, avoid things I don’t like and stay in my bubble. Embracing God’s pace throws every bit of that out the window. Over the last two months it seems like I have been seeking a slower pace with God and in my life; getting back to His Word for study and not looking for something to write when I am with Him. The slower pace of doing things that I love to do, making time with my family valuable.
If I am honest…here is my struggle; I have eliminated tasks, I have been very aware of my choices, quiet time and prayed like I never have before. This is a real spiritual journey, a real walk with God and its messy. You and I are seeking to do something that is so against the grain of our flesh that we are literally rewiring our brains, we are looking for a new way to function and exist with God outside of what our control freak flesh has tried to do for so long.
Well my flesh is still trying to be a control freak. It seems like a constant battle between what God is asking of me and my flesh’s need to be disobedient. Then God puts a complete halt on my tasks and says hey, I told you to cool it.
I am still learning. But I have a feeling this is a task that we are going to be working at for the rest of our days on this earth. We are constantly going to be seeking after His pace and pushing our flesh to the side. We will not have this all figured out after 31 days, we will not suddenly have a perfect pace to our lives, we will not instantly be obedient. Embracing God’s pace is a choice, a choice to obey what God is asking us to do. It is a choice to see God in every detail of our life and choose Him first.