This week I found myself fighting sickness, writers block, a traveling husband and a very heavy deadline hanging over me. I couldn’t help but immediately think about the last year and all that has happened. This time last year my mother in law was nearing the end of her battle with cancer, I was faced with a biopsy for a lump I found and life was challenging. It was a deep season of leaning greatly on God.
In the months prior God really began to stir my heart to write and I will say this…I knew God had given me something to say but I wasn’t very good at getting out on paper. I have the world’s worst grammar and often my 4th grader spells better than I do.
I struggled with the fact that God had called me to do something that would truly show my weaknesses. The places where I lacked the most confidence. I found myself putting up road blocks and not believing that God would actually call me here. But I have learned something…All that has taken place in the last twelve months God has used to teach me, He has used each hurdle and road block to show me that it has nothing at all to do with me. He gives the message and He is simply asking me to take it out to women who need to hear it. Our faith is bigger than the road blocks that get in the way.
This time last year I sat in the room with my mother in law and penned an advent study…I wrote words that were purposed by God to fix my eyes on something greater than my circumstance. Looking back on that study reminds me of how much God has done in this time, it brings to mind what He has taught me in a calling that I never could have filled on my own. God doesn’t always call us to what can do perfectly because then we would rely on our own strength and not His. What we call road blocks God calls opportunities.